Life Today, Then

So often I am just filling time, space, gaps. Filling in the gaps of loneliness, fatigue, working too much, not being appreciated, experiencing an aging physical body, lamenting over being taken for granted and used, sleeping on the couch because I no longer feel I am safe or comfortable in this space, and the never ending always repeating pounding of loneliness. Life today, then, is what was and will be, unless the one comes along. So sad, and yet, so full of anticipation, hope, joy, and the excitement of being in the moment, even if it is sometimes buried deep enough to be forgotten for a moment or few. So much unnecessary drama, what is the world coming to... I don't even want to know.

Unless you do.