Saturday, May 19, 2018

Might As Well

I sleep a bit more than I used to, but still there are many nights I am awake. After the logging. More and more though, instead of coming here or going elsewhere to indulge my addiction to writing and sharing, I distract myself with phone games while listening to background TV. Too real, the delusional distraction life. So normal, so sad, so futile. Meaningless, only if no one cares. Wondering about me. Somewhere in between the distractions, I've added to the bog here in years past and elsewhere, I just don't keep track or announce it the way I used to. Maybe I stopped believing anyone cares. Maybe I stopped caring if anyone cares... at any price. Still, after the blogging, loneliness swallow me whole.

And how are you?


Pernickety said...

I care. :) even if I suck at expressing my care, because usually too much care tends to scare.. But i care by thinking about the words you share. Yo yo. And waiting for your book somehow.. Even if you will never publish one, somehow I always think that there will have to be a book you will once write. Actually you have already written it. Just not published. :) hugs

candoor said...

Alas, Google-Blogger's comment notification system was down for most of 2018 so I didn't know this comment was here. Google-Blogger programmers don't know the damage they did to communication and to people who depend on their blogs for communication and support. They ignored thousands of complaints, emails, and posts to their support forums for months from people desperate to preserve their blogs. Probably another corporate financial decision, like most human decisions these days.

That said, this is my delayed response to you...

The part of me lost in the nightmare of the current condition and choices of the vast majority of humanity comes here to vent. Then I skip off into my mind where hope for humanity still exists in spite of the evidence of human self-destruction all around. Your caring is rare and wonderful elixir for me. That book may be scattered across time in more than a hundred places online. I love your for leaving these words. Thank you more than words can say. Hugs. :)

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candoor said...

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Introduce yourself, you'll get more :)