People Are Strange

So many years ago on this night I lost everything that mattered to my heart. It happened a few times after that and twice, everything else outside of my heart was gone too leaving me on the street. This year a friend came along to help but then decided he didn't want to and put me out of a garage he doesn't even use with nowhere to go and then another friend gave me a place to stay. My self-proclaimed BFF, well, betrayal and abandonment is a tough pill to swallow. This has been a very challenging year for living and I am almost ready to finally give up on life, but still, here, after all the blogging, I still long for love, for companionship, for partnership, for more.

How I keep hoping is a mystery, but I do.