Still Glad She Was Born

I supposed singing Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Heart's Club Band twice might be fitting, being "it was twenty years ago today" that it was twenty years ago today that the permanent break in my heart was sealed forever in the ability to lie and pretend everything was alright before everyone who knew me best at the time. I did everything she wanted me to do, start two relationships, hide our the relationship, continue both relationships, end our relationship, continue the other relationship as if ours never happened. I did it because she was all I wanted and I would do anything for her. Meeting her changed my life and interfered with every relationship I ever had because it was never really over. If I never met her my life would have been dramatically different, probably much more full of love and family and intimacy. Still, I am glad she was born and celebrate her birthday every year. Happy Birthday. I'm still right here waiting.

Here, in the afterblog.