more alone than ever

as i find myself more alone than ever with no one to depend on and no one to help me and no one to take care of me i remember that this is the way life is for everyone and some are lucky enough to have a partner sharing the illusion that we are not alone, but i've not found anyone who can share the illusion with me... and now i throw myself out on whomever cares for help and we shall see if i survive, but for the moment i feel more alone than ever and so very sad (and even scared and i have not felt scared in over a decade)... sigh...